Have you ever had to wait on something that you wanted really bad? Have you ever caught yourself watching the clock hour after hour... Waiting to get that call… Waiting to get that email… Waiting to get that alert ‘ding’ on your phone!
That’s how I have been lately and it is driving me completely BANANAS!
Now, I know ALL about PATIENCE…BUT there is some kind of feeling about having something soooooo close to your grasp, but you have no way to manipulate it to get it to you faster makes me want to just SCREAM!
When I have this feeling, I meditate on one of my favorite scriptures (Philippians 4:6-7), it states that we should
“Be Anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer, supplication and with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God and the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding will guard your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus”
I mean I can say that scripture backwards, forwards, in Chinese, Japanese, French and Spanish while doing a cartwheel, back hand spring, sipping on some lemonade….Yeah! I’m COLDER THAN ICE baby with that scripture!
But WHY then do I feel so anxious? Why do I feel like I want it so bad and I want it NOW? Why do I feel like calling the company and say...
"Hey, did you mean to call me?"... "Hey, do I have the Job?"... "Hey, when do I start?"... "Hey, can you talk to me about my manuscript?"... "Hey, what time you want me to pull up at your office so we can start working?"... "Hey, do you want me to bring coffee?"... "Hey, what about lunch, my treat?"
I mean I am anxious... OR what’s the new word that’s out now.. I am “THIRSTY”…. But WHY?!
Is it because I think that my opportunity will run away? Do I think this opportunity is now or never? Do I think this is a once in a lifetime thing? Do I think once this opportunity leaves it is GONE forever? Do I think this is the answer…and if this doesn’t work out then I am back to square one? Yes, honestly that’s how I felt…which is the WRONG way to think! So... I was in need of a Self Check:
Shantia, WHO is opening up this Door of Opportunity?… GOD or the woman in HR who processes your application!
Shantia, WHO is showing you this FAVOR?… GOD or the recruitment representative who saw you and said that you would be a perfect fit for the company!
Shantia, WHO is giving you this blessing?… GOD or the publishing company that says they can publish your book in 90 days!
Shantia, You must remember WHO is doing all this for you ... and it is GOD!
God's word say’s that “I know your works. See, I have set before you an OPEN door, and no one can shut it; for you have little strength, have kept my word, and have not denied my name." (Revelation 3:8)
GOD IS IN CHARGE!
I learned that we have to realize that God is strategic in his works… every second is pre-calculated for a reason. Every door that GOD open’s we won’t even have to knock …or like a pastor by the name of "John Gray" said in a sermon I listened to recently that God’s door of opportunity will not be “Hey, What is your name?” but rather it will be “Hey , We have been Expecting you?”
As, I was sitting here writing in my Prayer Journal today, I felt the Holy Spirit tell me not to grow weary in the waiting! There are some things God is doing on the back end that I need and that will affect me that I don’t even know about right now and I probably won’t even know how He used every setback for my good until years down the line. There are some things God is preparing for me that I haven’t even thought of to ask him for yet. God is opening up some doors that I didn’t even know I needed to be opened. God is shifting some people on my behalf that I didn’t even know I would meet and their story connects with my story and my story connects with their story and God was just setting up the stage. The Wait is a part of the process!
The moments that I was looking at my phone waiting for the email, waiting for the phone call…
“God was Working!”
So, when I did my SELF Check I had to ask God for forgiveness for being anxious and impatient, I had to pray and tell God that I know who is in CHARGE and it is HIM… I am not waiting for HR, a Recruitment Rep, a CEO, a Publishing Company, a Professor or a Manager to reach out to me… I am waiting for God to purposely connect the dots, fill in the blanks, cross some T’s, dot some I’s and SET up the stage. Every "second" longer I patiently wait is my blessing "magnifying"… every "minute" I patiently wait is the FAVOR of God "multiplying" over my Purpose!
So, as I sit here READY for my blessing I am redirecting my thoughts to God and how can I FOCUS on HIM. I am finding something new to read to feed my spirit, something new to learn to minister to my spirit and something new to prepare myself for the blessing. The more I FOCUS on God the faster time will seem to move and the easier the Wait will be to endure! "Peace that surpasses understanding" is the comfort behind knowing that
“In the Waiting... God is Working”